Super Board! WOOSH WOOSH!

i need to play my SUPERBOARD SOON!
anyone! Free? this sunday perhaps? or Friday?
ioamsomoolarsayiysoilfuf

here i am, and there you are.i wanted to hate myself. an excuse.a punishment made to myself.
i was so ready to call myself a fool.for i condemmend myself.i blame myself.it seems and means so much to me.i thought and thinks, its all my fault. im to blame.im a fucker. a god damn fucker. there was a chance.i could have.i never have a road to redemption.
i made this decision so long ago. but never able to enforce it.im hoping i could. i found the best method. the best way. to defend myself. to make sure i never will be fix up in such a situation.to prevent myself from getting hurt.from the few caught up situations i was in like before. and it all comes down to my fault. i was too fucked up. wasnt it?. i probably did too much, where the word reciprocate never comes in.im am ultra fucked up.why do these things keep happening to me. its because im fucked up. i look myself into the mirror, and i saw this fucked up person.its in my character.to fuck things up all at the end of the day.
so many questions appear in my head. i thought of this, and i thought of that.
i was just wondering about this afternoon. have? did? what? who? how? had? huh?
theres this main question swimming thru my exploding head.
does he know? did you tell him? i would gladly accept a lie, i guess.
here i am. thinking much this past week.and there you are thinking about other things.
i shouldnt doubt. im the fuck up one in the first place..

WHAT A HOT DAY! and TOMORROW!

<-- I HAVE THIS! its much nicer though.in real.

<-- I LIKE THIS! THIS IS NOT IN THE SHOP!

i spent my saturday. Working as FREE LABOUR!

and its going to be the same thing, tomorrow.

should i go? im still thinking. the two way benefits.

Go, i would be able to have fun with my SuperBoard!

( okay. i named my Board. DO NOT JUDGE ME )

UnGo. InGo, i would be able to have fun and watch tv!

glad i went there too. i found this super big! super cheap! SUPER HOT!

TWILIGHT POSTER! woot me! i bought 2.

i bought this skate board! cost 150$ damn! wad a great day!

and i think im gonna be tan till im national flag soon.

busy busy busy day!

what a busy day!

god forbids me to know.

but i found it out by an innocent coincidence.

i was then filled with paroxysms of emotions.

and then i realise it was all but a mistake of mine from the start.

Things will never be the same again.
FINE! God damn Fine! dont even bother!

i bought the twilight DVD today!

i would want to watch Rob fuck his co star " Doggy Style"

i couldnt compare whos hotter. Rob or Zac!

i would want to watch 17 again! its full of Hotness.

DAMN! all of them are HOT!

went out today to TOWN!
I WATCH PUAL BLART MALL COP!
omg. laugh the whole show, i guessed i need laughter that much.
i met LENNARD! when i was waiting for that idiot.
he was gorging himself on the burger. and he stop to talk to me.
didnt expect that though, so this means hes a good guy! haha
gorging and gorging on the burger.

had a fun time.
i need it badly.
talked alot too.

CHOM CHOM CHOM NOM NOM NOM!
im gonna learn about the DJ player; its cheap!

John Ledgend; Everybody Knows Nobody Really Knows..

current songs in my head;the lyrics.
Ina - Fall
Ina - I Wanted You
Enrique - Somebodys me
Jason Mraz - if It Kills Me
John Ledgend - Everybody Knows.
David Archuleta - A Little Too Not Over You
James Morrison ft. Nelly Furtado - Broken Strings.

i had the much urge to post all the songs html here.to share the songs.

this are the only few. theres so much more..
i need music to be the background of my life.
eitherwise, it would be such a void world.

im thanking Chong PeiYun Here.
or else shes gonna irritate me whole night.
thanks :D

! jacket !
i like and dislike the uses of it!
;keeps warm and protect;

i feel like a fool.i all jet pack set ready.but yet, i get pull back.
and then i fall into the abyss.and i just stay rooted here in my place.

faded shadows..

i have regreted it..shouldnt have typed out those words.its making me miserable.i feel pathetic.
theres this much repulsion, detest, disgustion felt.
i shouldnt have..

no longer the shinning new toy..

how ironic can this world be.that intriguing force that pulls you in.as you go against the world order to find that little cryptic truth.even if. you do know that its going to bring me that unfathomable unexplainable vexation.as you are enthralled by this absolutely indifferent new obsession.that indifferent attitude makes you feel even more vextated.and you would still have to act nochalant bout it.i hate it when contractditions occurs.the skeptical questions asked.will you fathom these vextations inflicted..

i have been backspacing my typed out word alot, recently.my head feels like its about to explode right infront of this computer.with all the blood splashed onto the screen as i see my thoughts scattered all over.i guessed you would know this is about you. Or.. stay oblivious.i backspace and contradict myself everytime i wish to blog.i would not want to cause unwelcome reactions.but then i thought,

whats the point of blogging if you are actually not able to post what you really are feeling.even if you do blog, there is the obvious hidded words and tone as you are not able to totally type it in full meanings. as you hide the true meanings.for the contradicitons

i frustrate myself with all the vexations caused by you.would you stay oblivious or are u acting oblivious to these truths.things has been worser and worser as day passes.i guess you found your shinning new toy.and its obvious that im no longer that shinning new toy.it still agonizes me though, to realise this.i kept asking myself.when i went to the back of the class to read the notes, all i thought was BullShits.time and again, situations has taught me that things will never last, or am i so unlucky that im always caught up on situations like that.and then i reflected on myself, and i thought of the law of contradictions. its probably that i give myself too much that the law of contradictions occurs.isit because i was always there whenever wherever? isit because i've put in too much? isit because i've made myself too easy to reach?isit because im always easy to be used?i hate myself for always being abused.would you feel the same way as i feel, the agonizing vextations i feel.i would deem myself rather as putting alot of a little bit of everything into this f/s. it seems that eveytime the same thing occurs.always the same reason.
i was backspacing again..

the thing that cant seem to get out of my mind.why isit that when i leterally begged you, and you refuse to budge in to my requests.and you agreed instantly the moment that new toy asked you.and the reason was, that the lighthing was brighter.i do admit that im abit jealous lah.but as a Leo, as me, i thought the WHOLE world knows im sensitive and insecure.i feel that you do know that im pissed off. and i do know that you are pissed off too.i thought that i would at least be the one person,able to be let you trust.i hope im able to be trusted by you.to be at least a good friend to you.no matter what. what sets the difference between the shinning new toy whom seems to dazzle you at the moment whereasi thought i was that good friend.who am i?what do i mean to you?or am i just a Thing..

i seldom so damn freaking well to a person.and cant u see that i actually treat u god damn well? there are the only 3 that i've treated well.two of them left me deeply dissapointed. there was Sheri.Yunting.Peiyun.suddenly. i miss peiyun so much.the urge to just see her or talk to her.Chong PeiYun, if you read this. be glad i mentioned you name. i knw you have always wish for me to admit that i miss you(:

after typing so much, i have the thought to backspace all of these..i hope things would be better and not worsen.i hope even if i did not backspace, we would still be the same.though i know that would be difficult..i do not want to wish to regret not backspacing my thoughts..i cant believe it that i've type so much till now.. and i aint feeling any better.its making me so miserable. i am pretty emo. goddamnit.im glad my family is eating out today.i gave me a reason.i would have drag my feet there..at about 30cm per second..

i have so much more to say...
i keep edditing this post..
Chapters of the Day...
i backspaced my 9 chapters.. and re post it back.

im vextated.
i feel like Edward, when he knew about
the baby, and what it was doing to bella.
the agonizing stare he gave jacob when
he knelt to the ground and begged jacob.
hysterical..

You make me smile .... - by Lic3ly on Polyvore.com

I LOVE IT!

FUNNY!

OH MY! I WATCHED IT THE UMPTEEN TIMES! AND IM STILL LAUGHING!

okay..seems to be rather melodramatic.
feeling like a fucking fool.
im sticking to my Law Of Contradictions.

FML..

SEXY BEASTS!

i am so going to fail my test today D:
TAN WEIXIN TRICKED ME TODAY!
i got KETCHUP ALL OVER MY HANDS!
damn it! and it still smells like ketchup!

F.M.L
fuck.my.life


how ironic can this world be.that intriguing force that pulls you in.as you go against the world order to find that little cryptic truth.even if. you do know that its going to bring me that unfathomable unexplainable vexation.as you are enthralled by this absolutely indifferent new obsession.that indifferent attitude makes you feel even more vextated.and you would still have to act nochalant bout it.i hate it when contractditions occurs.the skeptical questions asked.will you fathom these vextations inflicted..

I made a promise..

my favourite JASPER HALE!

LOVE HER HAIR! and look at JACOB'S bulging muscles!

ROBERT PATTINSON! MY DREAMY GORGEOUS PERFECT EDWARD!

LOVE HER BOTAK!

LOOK AT THE BIG DIFFERENCE BETWEEN EMMET AND ALICE! SHE IS SO PRETTY!

i made a promise.
i hope im able to fufil it.
if not, i will be condemmed, i think.

THAT PROMISE IS TO TO WELL FOR THE TEST TOMORROW

i love my ironic post..

the feelings of inanition.

i hate the feelings of being:

used.unappreciated.taken advantage of.

WOOHOO! DAMN EXCITED OVER NEW MOON! HAHAHAHS!

PULAU NEH NEH

the perfect jane! WOOHOO! shes so perfect for jane!
and she is only 15!
like Woah!
the perfect jane!
tick yes or no!
[X] [ ]
yes no

OKAY!
did the stupid SBQ history test for nothing.
cleared the questions wit him. and end up is PRINTING ERROR!
wasted my damn time to write TWO PAGES of ANSWER!
and we would still have to re-do it!
why is he impressed? hahahahahs!

FML! NEXT TRIP: TO PULAU NEH NEH!
i make the woosh wooosh sounds.

jason mraz!

JASON MRAZ IS A REALLY SEXY AND CUTE GUY!
WENT TO HIS CONCERT YESTERDAY! OH MY!
HAD A REALLY GREAT TIME!
although he sang some songs that i do know how to sing at all..
BUT STILL! WOOHOO!
his actions are really cute and sexy in a way! hahahah.
sang to his songs! and the whole crwod was WILD!
we were seat hopping!
he took a photo of himself and throw it into the front crowd!
OH MY! FISHING JEALOUS!
AHHHHH! what a great guy!
i wanted to buy his shirt! but its FORTY-FIVE DOLLARS!

P/S:
there was this girl, she was shaking and dancing to his songs like she dance strip dance for her boyfriend.the way her sensual hips sway!as though she dancing in the pub where she grinded her butt to her boyfriend and kept touching her head and hair while she sway!
WOOT! i LAUGHED MY HEAD OFF!

HAD A REALLY GREAT LAST ANNUAL ROAD WALK!
i was last! i think.
AND WE PLAYED BASKETBALL AFTER SCHOOL!
and i seemed to be the center attraction for pain. always attack.
AND THAT FISHING YIXIANG KEEPT TOWERING OVER ME!

Im Yours..Im lucky im in love with my bestfriend...If it kills me, If it kills me..

Clueless

I am in my Computer studies lesson right now!
Supposingly to do my O'level Coursework.
totally unsure of what to do with it..
BUT INSTEAD! TALKING TO ALVIN AND CHUNTEIK!
and that malaysian guy sure knows his country.

hmm. seem to be clueless at alot of things..
that i cant seem to get it out of my head.
things that kept me thinking and thingking nonstop.

WHAT THE BUCK! THROWDOWN HOEDOWN!
FISH IN THE JERKY! THE JERKY IN THE CHEESE!

intriguing obligations..

F.M.L
fuck.my.life

how ironic can this world be.
that intriguing force that pulls you in.
as you go against the world order to find that little cryptic truth.
even if. you do know that its going to bring me that unfathomable unexplainable vexation.
as you are enthralled by this absolutely indifferent new obsession.
that indifferent attitude makes you feel even more vextated.
and you would still have to act nochalant bout it.
i hate it when contractditions occurs.
the skeptical questions asked.
will you fathom these vextations inflicted..

to covet of what denys me of.
bella's actually a selfish bitch for making both jacob and edward hurt D: