Super Board! WOOSH WOOSH!

i need to play my SUPERBOARD SOON!
anyone! Free? this sunday perhaps? or Friday?
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here i am, and there you are.i wanted to hate myself. an excuse.a punishment made to myself.
i was so ready to call myself a fool.for i condemmend myself.i blame myself.it seems and means so much to me.i thought and thinks, its all my fault. im to blame.im a fucker. a god damn fucker. there was a chance.i could have.i never have a road to redemption.
i made this decision so long ago. but never able to enforce it.im hoping i could. i found the best method. the best way. to defend myself. to make sure i never will be fix up in such a situation.to prevent myself from getting hurt.from the few caught up situations i was in like before. and it all comes down to my fault. i was too fucked up. wasnt it?. i probably did too much, where the word reciprocate never comes in.im am ultra fucked up.why do these things keep happening to me. its because im fucked up. i look myself into the mirror, and i saw this fucked up person.its in my character.to fuck things up all at the end of the day.
so many questions appear in my head. i thought of this, and i thought of that.
i was just wondering about this afternoon. have? did? what? who? how? had? huh?
theres this main question swimming thru my exploding head.
does he know? did you tell him? i would gladly accept a lie, i guess.
here i am. thinking much this past week.and there you are thinking about other things.
i shouldnt doubt. im the fuck up one in the first place..